Emily, I am so sorry for your ups and downs but the sooner you just stay firm in your anger and work thru it and then let it go. you will get off this Roller Coaster that you are on.

I just found an old receipt {[ my H gave me receipts to look thru that were in his truck in a huge garbage bag,, we are dealing with the IRS}} that clearly confirms he stayed at a Hotel with the OW where she lives. I got a little upset and then just thought to myself " WOW HE WAS REALLY LOST!!!" PLUS A FEW EXPETIVES TOO. And I let it go ,,,, I need to remember my worth. GOD WILL GUIDE YOU,,, JUST LISTEN.



It IS painful baby but when you allow the pain to consume you it is no good. It is ok to have bad days and vent, but we worry so much about you cause you are so young. Do not give up and I love what someone posted to you that he cannot love anyone right now. etc. etc. That person is so right,,, My H would come home on the pretext to see the kids and when I stayed upstairs {[ so he could spend time with them and not have to look at me or deal with me}}he would come up here to look for me..!!! { LOST...}}}

He is lost like I have told you before honey so while he is lost ------------->>>>>>>>>find yourself.

I guess that is what we all want you to do. Save yourself , find yourself and grow as a Woman. you are really smart and really strong you just let " THEM" f*ck with your happiness. I know it is hard hon, but let their bs go and let him find him. When he is ready , really ready then that is when you want him to return and until then be strong and find you. I think of you evrytime I hear that Rascall Flatts song ,, that song is so pretty.
And if he feels any of the lyrics let him work thru this and give him space. He needs time to heal just like you do. And yes he is being selfish but at least the girls have you to be their ROCK. Be tough, be strong and loving for you and for those beautiful little girls.. they are your future..!!


Hang in there baby, be strong we are here for you.
God bless....