I wanted to address the part where you mentioned feeling very sick, throwing up periodically. I have been there. When the thing happened that I realized was the final straw in my former M I was able to keep very little food down - I lived on peanut butter sandwiches (1/2 at a time), bananas and the occasional glass of skim milk ( I hate mild but it is mild). That lasted for about three weeks or so. The whole atmosphere of recognizing that your M is over is surreal and weird, you feel almost as if you drift in and out of reality periodically. Hang in there, things do even out and get better eventually. Heather, you know that I am on this board because I have issues in my 2nd M - they are NOWHERE NEAR the one's in my first. I took time between the two to heal and process a lot of things. Do that favor for yourself.
