Thank so much for the words of support. I was hesitant to post because I was afraid people would say I hadn't tried hard enough or done enough.
There has just been so much that has gone on the last few days, so much that has led up to my decision that I can't even put it into words. It's much more vague, but yet much more telling just to say that it suddenly became very clear to me that H does not want this M.
I am quite heartbroken. Sick. I feel like throwing up at various times throughout the day and feel utterly defeated that what I fought so hard to avoid is actually happening. Everyone who knows me assures me it is for the best, but I can't help the fear that takes over every time I think about what this may to do my kids.
I'm trying not to think too much. I just have to take this one step at a time. Thanks for being here for me.
"Happiness is a butterfly, which, when pursued, is always just beyond your grasp, but which, if you will sit down quietly, may alight upon you."
