As I read back through my last couple posts, I see that in my mind it feels like I haven't brought up any R talks, but just in reading my posts, it is obvious that I have. I haven't discussed our 'future' I guess is what I'm trying to say and I've tried not to push anything. Any discussions I've initiated have been very much about the present. I haven't been posting much, I've been doing ok just coasting along. But I see that during conflict with H, my feelings are still all over the place. Just a few comments from H "you only see what you want to see" "you can't compromise, you don't know how"....I'm right back to feeling like I don't know myself at all. How can I be so different on the outside vs what I think I'm conveying? When I start feeling this way, the few MC sessions that H and I had sort of help me get through because she did not think I was crazy and she seemed to think that I communicated with H just fine, but it was he that would not particpate. That validates my perception and while I'm not all about validating my perceptions, it does help me to not feel so crazy, as H insists that things are not the way I see them. Anyone have any thoughts to give?
"Happiness is a butterfly, which, when pursued, is always just beyond your grasp, but which, if you will sit down quietly, may alight upon you."
