Afterall...This IS my Life

[heatherg]

Burgbud, that's great to hear about Dana. It's very sobering to see how quickly life can take turns, ya know?

The jealousy book was for me. Sometimes feelings of jealousy creep up on me and I hate feeling that way. It's even harder to admit that I have those feelings. Sucks

I was in Annapolis this past weekend for our annual company management meeting. H was able to make it with me this time and it was really...surprising I guess is the best word to use. When we were getting ready to leave, H started being very affetionate, gave me a big hug, sighed and said "Why are we so stupid?" I just paused and said "If I understand the context of that question correctly, it's the smartest thing I've heard you say in a long time...". We slept in the same bed the whole time, H was affectionate like in the old days. Get this-he even told me Friday night that he had felt like kissing me earlier in the night! So, we had a great weekend. Then, we come home and the sleeping arrangements are back to the usual. Last night he started pushing back on the bedtime issue again. I don't give a damn, I'm not scared of ruining 'what's going well'. I am NOT budging on the bedtime issue. I don't even have it 'my way', the bedtime is still way too late and is not meeting my criteria for compromise, which is in bed ready to sleep by 9:30. He's not in bed ready to sleep until 10pm because the bedtime routine takes 45 mins. I have to push every minute of that 45 mins to keep things moving. He pushes back. It's so fing stupid it blows my mind. I told him that I am not an opinionated person by nature but that I have a strong opinion on this issue and I will not back down, so I guess we can just continue to butt heads on the issue. Last night I realized I may even have to get slighly underhanded in order to accomplish my objective, and underhanded is NOT the way I usually operate. H usually lets S6 get up twice after he's been in bed, I say once is plenty. So, last night I rewarded S6 with a Rolo to stay in his bed. Desperate Housewives is rubbing off on me I think

A lot of mixed stuff going on....it's like positives mixed with the same ole crap. Things don't change overnight though and it used to be the same ole crap every day with not a whole lot of positive stuff going on. So, at least the positive stuff is becoming more frequent and has more quality than it used to. It used to be a positive thing at times if H simply spoke to me. Now, an example of a positive thing is that H said he felt like kissing me. See the difference, lol??