Gels comment confused me at first too, Heather, but I ended up assuming she meant---its not a bad thing that you have grown from that girl.
Oops, I get it now.
If we didnt make mistakes, we wouldnt need courage- and If we didnt need courage, there would be no confidant/insecure seperation.... no growth.
This reminds me of Grey's Anatomy last night. There was an awesome monoglogue at the end by Denny, the guy who's heart transplant didn't 'take'. But he left a message of some sort for his parents before he died and it was a really awesome portrayal of mistakes. I'll have to watch the rerun just so I can write it down, because it was very poetic.
Jabez, I'm so sorry that things haven't changed much for the better. I would like to see you stick around, maybe in Surviving, but I obviously defer to your own ability to recognize what's best for you.
I'm glad that the girls are flourishing and I hope that in time you will be able to look back on this time as a necessary evil to get you where you are supposed to be in this life. From everything you've posted, it sounds like your WAW went through some changes that would have made it impossible for her to be the wife you once had in her so I hope that in some way that makes it a little easier to let her go. I wish you the best my friend and please do consider staying on the boards.
"Happiness is a butterfly, which, when pursued, is always just beyond your grasp, but which, if you will sit down quietly, may alight upon you."
