Afterall...This IS my Life

[heatherg]

Are you clear on how you're in the M with both feet while at the same time taking it day by day?


I'm just not putting the pressure on myself that if I stay to work things out that I will always have to stay. That just isn't true. In the past, I've put a lot of pressure on myself as far as worrying about wasting too much of my <young> life with H. So, when I say I'm taking one day at a time, I'm not allowing myself to get too far into the future. I can't predict the future, so there's no point in trying to see possible outcomes/scenarios. For now, I am here because it's what feel right overall. But I've stopped telling myself 'it's now or never' because it's just not like that.

I was looking into that movie some months ago but some internet research on Ramtha and JZ Knight made me cautious:

Thanks, I'll check it out.

H called this morning and we exchanged a few sentences, pleasantly. I asked him if he had been at the bar since the football game yesterday. He said no, they left the game then went to get t-shirts at a brewery and ended up staying....a long time. And trying a bunch of different micro brews. I said 'you were pretty messed up'. He said 'yeah I was. It was stupid'. I said 'ok, well at least we're in agreement on that. I guess we can move past it now'. He said 'ok. It's been a loong time since I've been like that.' I said 'yes it has....and it didn't bring back very good memories to hear you sound like that. I don't like to see/hear you that way...for that matter I don't like to see/hear anyone that way.'

That was pretty much the end of it. But I feel better about it now. The communication thing really works when it works