Thanks for the reply. I am doing better. The anger thing is gone, came to realize that it doesn't do any good to get angry over things I have no control over. Plus, I have to be strong for my girls. Mom left them and they don't know why she's doing this to them. I have to show them that 1 parent is still stable for them.
I do have some times when I think about her often. I still miss her old self, wonder if she misses me, then I turn my thoughts to being the best Dad anyone can be. Turning all my attention to them. I does help. I don't know what I would do if they weren't here. We have so much fun.
The phone calls have now stopped from Mom. Oldest made sure of that with the last convo they had. Told her she knows nothing sbout them anymore and If she only calls to talk about herself, That she needs to stop, Its only hurting her and her sister to hear her gloat. Even went as far as telling Grandma to tell Mom to stop. Granndma did and they have. So now we can concetrate on getting on with our lives.
We still have hurdles to get over, but they have become easier. This Christmas has been filled with mixed emotions. IT definatly is the hardest time of the year for folks in our situations. But we'll get through it, were tough over here. We've got plans to make it special.
Denise is missing out! These girls are so funny and its a joy to be around them when they get goofy. I wish I had some magic words to say to make her realize this, But I don't and I feel real bad that she is missing out on these girls everyday lives. These days cannot be repeated.
I keep thinking she's going to come to her senses someday and realize what she's done. I don't know. And im not suppose to worry about these things. But deep down I still love her and worry about her.
