Quote: Of course, when I'm lonely, he's there for me too. And I guess at times I do like being alone; doing what I want... but that's not something I want for the rest of my life.
I want love. I want to be loved again.
You know what? You are normal. And you are a normal women in the process of healing. Have you ever read about the 7 stages of death? And the healing process that goes along with it?
I'm going to throw something out at you, just to think about.... I'm wondering if you aren't so much wanting 'love' per se, as you are wanting a 'purpose,' and significance in your life. No matter what the state of your M was... you knew who you were and your purpose in it... even if it was chaotic. Now... you have all KINDS of time on your hands... time that can very difficult to fill.
It's why getting a life is so important.
I'd check into reading some books on recovering and healing from a divorce... see where you are in your healing process... and maybe see a counselor or seek out a support group that will help lift you out of the mild depression you seem to be going in and out of...
Finding a meaningful purpose for your life... is not the easiest thing in the world to do. It takes an incredible amount of introspection and a lot of trial and error in finding out what you do and don't like.
Take little baby steps or you will overwhelm yourself and not do anything.
