My XH and I will have a wonderful weekend together (I am not the only one that thinks this; he tells me so too), whither it be relaxing and cuddling or running errands etc... (which, yeah, I know can seem weird for X-spouses to do... but we're weird, WCIS)
Then at times on Monday... he'll get distant... could it be that he is AFRAID to get close to me again?
I know that he is confused about what he wants. Right now I'm not making it hard on him either. He has his 'routine' his 'fortress of solitude' alone at the house. So he can do what he wants, watch what HE wants on TV etc. But then when he's lonely; there I am, down the road in my apartment. Just a phone call away; just a quick five mile zip in the car. Of course, when I'm lonely, he's there for me too. And I guess at times I do like being alone; doing what I want... but that's not something I want for the rest of my life.
I want love. I want to be loved again.
Geez. Life is what? Besides pain. I'm tired of pain. There's got to be something else but damn if I can remember anymore.
