Sara, thanks for checking in on me. I've been busy, but mostly I needed to stay away from here for a bit. I was getting in the way of my own damned self by over-analyzing every little thing and relying on others too much.
The past few weeks have been interesting. My efforts have been a weird combination of DB and not-so-very advisable DB practices. LOL I've probably gone against everyone's advice and allowed him to lead the way when it came to our R. I'm not sure where it's headed, but things were good. At least until this past weekend when I attended a wedding. with him, however he was working. I am a stupid drunk and I'll leave it at that. After a blazing argument, him telling me it was truly over between us, he ended up back here again. So things right now seemed to have backslid in some ways; but I am doing everything in my power to change the way we interact. It's been very beneficial. I think had I not known Dbing this weekend, I really would have destroyed my hard work.
He has told me that he told OW that he made a mistake by asking me to move out; and told me he's ashamed of the things he's done.
I'm taking things tentatively and slowly; and I don't want to jinx anything, but wanted to give a little update. My efforts now are focusing on necessary changes in the way we interact; to try and get some more intimacy back between us. That is my hardest stumbling block - the area where I lack any inventiveness. But I'm trying. And I'm not giving up!
