Maybe you just need to do the same. Maybe you need to reject the comfort that the pain holds for you and take the risk of feeling truly happy again. It's a HUGE risk for us because once we allow ourselves to feel that way in the company of our S's, we risk everything again, but hell, life's a risk anyway so why not.
You know you may be on to something there,,, I AM afraid to let go of the pain some b/c my husband seems to knock the wind out of me when I am really happy by doing something awful....... BTW... a light went on in my head when I realized that yes looking at her name every morning and every night when he wants to snuggle.. or even laying on that side of his body and he puts my head on her name basically.. I feel as though she is in the room with me... The tattoo is on his chest.
If only my H knew how much it hurt.
I did mention my hurt the other day and he said I know I am sorry.... But he can not really know the pain.
and BTW to totally hijack your thread can you help me with a question? I will post it in my thread.
And thank you for your post it helped alot. God bless...
