Hey, I also did the same, trying to think about a "future H". I made a list of all the things I would want in a H. I never did that before. I also had faith that God would provide me with a great H, whether it be my original H or someone new. I almost was a little hopeful and slightly excited, making the list. I don't know if it is good DBing, but I think that it would be good for you. This doesn't mean that you have totally given up hope, because your H can still be these things when he realizes what a fool he has been!

Hang in there though, I hope you got through the Holidays wonderfully
Crissy

Me 33 H 34 S9 S3
M 6 yrs (2gether 11 yrs)
EA/PA 1/2006
DB 5/2006
H wants D 6/2006
H wants ME 8/2006
H "said" PA/EA over 8/2006
H erased OW off phone! 2/2007

"It is far better 2 choose humility & change oneself, than 2 wait in vain trying 2 chang someone else."