Moving Forward

[MonicaP]

H called to say he is "stuck" wherever he is due to overbooked flight and won't be here tomorrow to visit S4. So, not only did he NOT see S4 for Thanksgiving - he is now lying to get out of the 1 day they might of had together to stay w/ Ow. I don't believe him for a second about being stuck, in fact, I told him I predicted he would be calling to say that. I absolutely expected it because that's what he's been doing for the last year. I told him "you either have the worst luck or you better come up with some better excuses." I also told him I predicted he would be using that excuse. He just responded with "whatever" and "to hell with you". Nice WTF! What does he expect. He is the boy who cried wolf and I'm sick of it. I also mentioned that he should be giving me (S4) the money he spent on his airline ticket and his response was that he didn't pay for it. He asked if I wanted to know who paid for it and I said no. I don't want to hear any of his drama!

Meanwhile S4 has been great through this 4-day weekend until tonight after hearing daddy won't be here. He acted out at bedtime a lot. It makes me so angry toward H for putting S4 through this - my son doesn't deserve this! And either do I.

H called yesterday night to say hi to S4. I always just hold the phone to S4's ear and then say goodbye when they're done. What struck me this time was a slightly "softer" tone in H's voice and a slight hesitation about hanging up. When he said "bye" he said it in his "old" (when we were together) voice. It stuck with me up until tonight when he called to bail out.

I wonder if he ever thinks about US, our FAMILY, the way things used to be.

Well, my Thanksgiving was very nice. S4 and I went up North to be with family. We got our Christmas tree next day and I've started to get into the holiday spirit. I pray I don't feel too depressed this year. Last year was a blurr.

See ya...