Moving Forward

[MonicaP]

Thanks 25yrsmlc, your message was really helpful. I hope I can get to the point where I *know* I can live happily without my H forever. Sometimes I feel it and sometimes I miss him beyond words. When I'm in my grief I find it almost unbearable to accept that we are no longer together and all of this has happened. Fortunately I don't dwell on it long.

You're right about the fact that we have it pretty good. More than pretty good really. I do try to keep that in perspective and maintain that attitude of gratitude. I have many many reasons to be grateful!

But, I do feel like I've been taking 2 steps forward and 1 step back these days. Just when I think I'm getting ahead -H tells me he lost his job. With his job he lost his only car (company car). So, he hasn't been to see S4 this week yet and I haven't seen the money in my account he said he was going to deposit. Ugh!

All I can do is keep praying. I just can't understand why I am being tested so much. But again, I've got it really good in the grand scheme of things. H says he has some interviews lined up already and insists he'll be here to see S4 on Sunday. I hope Ow doesn't drive him (I don't think she even has a car).

Well, best of luck w/ your sitch, it sounds promising. That's awesome!

M.