hi Monica:

As you can see I have been off the boards lately myself. Like you going through alot of emotional rollercoasters.

I had lots of stuff to say about what has been going on but it was superceded tonight by H saying that he wanted to put closure to our situation and get a D. Of course he expects me to do all the work, filing etc. Well let him wait. He promises that he will pay this and pay that and that if I want it in writing that is no problem but it would not be worth the paper that it is written on.

We had another moment this week. But afterwards he was in a really bad mood as if he felt guilty about cheating on her or maybe giving me the wrong ideas.

When he mentioned D I did not say anything else to him but then he proceeds to hang around until 11pm. What for. You've stated your position which is not to be here so move on. But I guess it really is not that simple. I am tired now and it all hurts too much I am so ready to give up.

maf