My H definately piecing but me...

[74Kim]

I have to say reading al these replies it is definately starting to sink in. The phone bill is available to be read online tomorrow. I was anticipating to read it. I will refuse to look at it. And stay strong not to ever look at it. That will be my first challenge.

It's like saying "you've messed up and I want you to remember that, you have made so many mistakes and I want you to pay for it".

I am definately doing that. I do want him to pay for it.I want him to remember forever, because I will. Deep down I do not want that , but on the surface it would make me feel good for the moment. But for the long haul, I do not want that.

I can not express the gratitude I have for all of your responses. I could never do this with out you all. I know that I do not post on any of your threads, and I am sorry for that, but I am not ready to be giving advice, because I havent a clue as to what I am doing. As you can all see. But anyways thanks so so so so so much!