My H definately piecing but me...

[74Kim]

Everybody keeps telling me it takes time. But my H is getting very impatient with me. How do you restrain yourself from asking the questions, that really do not need to be asked. I do not throw stuff in his face, but I do like to have peace of mind. I am scared to death to just let go, and believe what he tells me.Its funny I am more frightened of being lied too, than him actually having another A or picking up were he left it with her.

He told me that he refuses to live his life like this, I can understand him when he says that. But how do you withold from spying and checking up. I know I shouldnt be doing it, but its like I just have to know. I am gonna drive him right out the door and that is not what I want.

K- I know you made the comment before, somewhat like; that when you needed an answer you couldnt wait for it. How did you get past that?

TL-

that we must choose to become strong first

How do you do that? I do not know where to look for it in myself.

I know I am doing all the wrong things to fix our R, and I am just making it much harder for him.And pushing him away.

Kim