My H definately piecing but me...

[74Kim]

I still do not understand what complete forgiveness is. I can understand that it is our duty to forgive, but what does that entail? Maybe I have forgiven and dont really even know that I have. And how can I get my h to forgive himself. He is not ready and not even trying too. He feels he does not deserve any forgiveness from anybody.

As for wedding rings, I am not being spiteful or nasty by not wearing them.I just can not bring myself to. I dont feel comfortable with them on. I think they are a reminder to me as to how false all his promises were. They are supposed to be a sign of commitment. After an A the M you once had is gone. Its like mourning a death. The old M no longer exsists. So for me to wear those rings is a constint reminder of the past , that seemed to mean nothing.