Giving my sitch to God

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W called OM on Christmas Eve to "check on him" and see how he was doing. When I discovered this (by snooping on her cell), I decided to get away for a few days.

I went to west Texas and hiked in Guadeloupe Mountains National Park and had a great time of mental rest and spiritual renewal. I read Wild at Heart and can't recommend it enough to most men on these boards (also for women who want to understand men).

I came back with a new drive to DB, and found that while W was seemingly done with OM, she had decided that she wanted to go ahead with the divorce and be alone for a while. She said that she "couldn't do this" (meaning live with me right now and not talk to OM). Of course, that was a blow, but I said that I thought it would be good for us to just be friends for a while. I later found out (picking up clues from her comments) that OM has been absolutely furious, basically calling her a whore who couldn't go a few months without sex, so she jumped back into bed with her husband (I wish!). When I got the full picture, I noticed all the comments that she was making that implied a long-term future for us. I think the bit about planning the divorce was mainly so that she can tell OM that she didn't dump him to go back to me -- she dumped him because she doesn't want to be with anyone right now.

So that's where we are. I do think W and OM are through as a couple. W said on Sunday that OM calls her every day angry, because he had saved up these two weeks of leave to spend with her, had his airline tickets into New Orleans, and then had to have his mother drive from west Florida to pick him up (he lost his car in his bankruptcy). So, it wasn't just that W broke up with him, he's furious because W messed up detailed plans and months of anticipation (the only time they had seen each other since August 1 was when they had visited briefly in mid-October). Now, his leave is gone. I hope and pray that there is now too much water under that bridge for them to ever get back together.

On the other hand, I'm now in a position where I really have to DB. W has a lot of affection for me, and I'm planning to everything I can to make that grow. She, D4, and I had a great time ice-skating last night, and I'm really looking forward to our growing our relationship again.