Giving my sitch to God

[RBinBR]

I spent Friday and Saturday nights with W, who wanted me to be with her because she is struggling right now with a bout of bipolar disorder and knew that I was the best person to help keep her sane. No kissing or anything like that, but some holding and snuggling.

Most of the time, she is very committed to the end of her relationship with OM. She seems determined not to talk to him. She is not, however, ready to commit to our marriage (and I've told her that I'm not ready to commit either).

I definitely am concerned that OM will call her and she will talk to him and respark the A. She definitely still has feelings for him and ended the A because she wants to serve God, not because she was tired of him or because of a fight or anything.

Mixed up in this is my concern as to how her decisions right now are being affected by her altered mental state. It's hard for me to know what she's going to think when she's not sick anymore.

I'm trying not to let myself get my hopes up too much, but it may be a little late for that. I really didn't want to be the one comforting and guiding her during this time, but her mental illness forced that upon me. The good news is that she does seem very grateful, and she does care for me, even though not yet in a romantic way. Our time together was good. We did Bible studies together, prayed together, and shared a lot of feelings.

We'll just have to wait and see what happens.