Hi RB, I am glad you posted and that things are going well with you and your D. And also your teaching. It seems like you are calming down and leveling out the emotions quite a bit, sticking with what's in front of you to do each day (which is plenty, I imagine!) I still see much hope for you in your sitch. Just keep yourself busy and enjoying life as much as possible. If your W ever moves through the depression, she may feel strong enough at some point to tell you what it is you have wanted to hear to allow the reconcilliation to occur if you still want that. She is so lost right now, and hurting. Meanwhile, you just keep being great and take good care of yourself. You will need a lot of strength and compassion and patience and love if your W ever does make more steps your direction, just to decide what's the best thing to do. I believe you will have that opportunity at some point and you will be able to choose what is best with a clear heart. I will pray for you and for your W and little girl RB. Thanks for posting every once in a while. It is slow going right now, but time is your best friend. Time will heal all of your hearts. I write this for me too, as it is hardest for me over the holidays, as I miss my H and our family with him in it. But your life is in God's hands. Maybe the fact that you don't have the money for a divorce right now is because it is not the best thing right now.
I've had a little saying in my wallet for years, that a friend wrote for me.
"God will provide for me that which I need in His time."
Wishing you peace, joy, and love this season, RB.
PositivelyListening ************************************** When one door of happiness closes, another one opens; but often we look so long at the closed door that we do not see the one which has been opened for us. - Helen Keller
