I admire your strength as I am just starting down the road you've been on for a year now. My husband left on July 12th and is having an A with OW he works with who was married also. Her and her H are already divorced. I started going back to church and have renewed my faith. My H on the other hand is smoking Marijuana to cover his pain. We are both 24 and only ones the other has ever been with until now. We have an 11 month old son and I don't think reality has hit him...period! The drugs and drinking have hindered all thoughts of reality. As for u it is so hard for me to see my H who grew up in an extremely conservative family, went to Bible college, and works in a jail doing all of these things....going down the wide path to destruction....and realizing it all the same. As your wife, he feels very guilty and is very embarassed and has said "I would never be able to forgive myself for what I've done anyway." It's horrible to watch your spouse go through such a time, but my faith in God right now is stronger than it's ever been and I know that no matter what happens everything will be ok. Of course I would love for my marriage to be successful but like you it's going to be a long road ahead...he just got his apartment 3 days ago and got a year lease for it and bought brand new everything throughout...bought new furtniture today. Surely doesn't give me much hope for anything happening to soon. His family and I are very close and everyone is so upset with him...he's loosing everything in his life because of his A and drugs but he still won't seek help. If you have any advice at all I'd love to hear it...seeing you've been through this all before.
I do wish you the best of luck and yes, God can work miracles, but one thing is, it's all in God's time!
