You surely have a lot on your plate. In CA it is very bad here with over full classes too. I remember when my daughter was in high school, one of her classes had 44 kids in it. They did not even have enough desks, kids were sitting on the counters in the back and on the floor. They had no where else to put them, and classrooms were then put in trailers too. It took weeks to get it worked out. It is a really tough situation you are in, and I know you want to be the best teacher you can be. I hope you can take some time to get yourself more organized during the next couple of weekends, and hopefully get some help inthe classroom too? Getting it to feel more manageable will help, I'm sure. The first month of the year is toughest, too. My cousin is a school teacher in a very low income area, and her work is really tough. However, she has been at it for 23 years, and now it flows more easily, even with the work that comes home. Hang in there RB. I know you will be a great teacher.
Well, re: your W's A. My H's affair went to the one year mark in August. Although it seems like an interminably long time, I have read that most affairs that do not end immediately with remorse, die a slow death which is usually 1 1/2 - 2 years later. It takes that long for the "glow" of that R to wear off and the reality to sink in. It does not surprise me that your W has not proceeded with filing for D. I believe inside herself, she knows what she is doing is wrong, and I also believe she loves you but feels unworthy and like she may not be forgiven. I have also read how people who are damaged in childhood, have a hard time making it back - there is so much shame and guilt. Have you read "When A Mate Wants Out" by the Conways? I have found it very helpful, and it is written from a Christian perspective.
Anyway, if you are too tired to even take care of yourself, you will have little left for anything else. So that must come first. I hope you can put some steps into action today that will get you some resources or relief. I think you need some relief! A helper, a C, some fun on the schedule - just so everything in your life doesn't show up like a "have to" instead of a "want to". Just do whatever you need to take care of yourself right now. Maybe D4 can even help! I remember when I was sick, and my little one brought me juice and a straw, and covered me in a blanket and tucked me. When I am sick now, I still think of how precious that was. Let people help, RB. You deserve it.
You will be in my thoughts and prayers.
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