Giving my sitch to God

[RBinBR]

Well, W and I just had a long conversation, with a lot of crying on her part. Giving up and giving her the divorce has given me more confidence (because I have nothing to lose), and I wasn't afraid to tell her the truth tonight. She talked about how she "can't" give him up and I told her that she doesn't want to give him up, but that the Bible says that she can do all things in Christ, and I don't believe that God is a liar, so she can, but isn't really willing to. I told her that I think she is eventually going to have a Scarlett O'Hara moment when she realizes that she has really loved me all along. I told her that OM wants her because he wants to satisfy his own desires, while I love her enough to let her go ... and she agreed with that, saying that he is dependent on her and loves her for himself. She talked about how much she hurts inside and how she doesn't even understand how I could still want her, etc. I told her that I still loved her and that I had confidence that God was going to transform her when she decided to walk in obedience to Him. I told her that I was letting her go but also inviting her back. I told her that I wasn't sad (for myself) about the divorce because I know that I'm walking in obedience to God and that He will take care of me ... and that gives me great joy. I projected strength and told her that I still believe that she will be victorious over this sin, that I still believed in her. She repeated that I am still her best friend, and that she still cares for me a great deal and feels a strong spiritual connection with me.

It was, ultimately, a very good talk. I projected a strength and confidence that I've never really had in our relationship, and I'm happy about that. I no longer have to fear failure or rejection, so I can just let it all hang out. It didn't change anything for today, but maybe it planted some seeds for later. It did finally end with my telling her to get back with me when she has talked to her attorney.