Damn I thought I could throw a good pity party. You got me beat. What happens over the next year will ripple in the lives of many for years. It is up to you to determine which way those ripples flow. You cannot control it all, but you can have one helluva influence.
Fight it, fight these demons that are tying you up, set yourself free, he is JUST a MAN, there are more where he came from ok? even if that myspace crap is true (remember, sorry excuses of woman who mess with married man are screwed up on the head with NO real sence of reality and full of problems themselves) do not let her win! she doesn't deserve your little girls!
Damn it, my son was unplanned and my M started out with the wrong foot, but I would have never given him up, he is blood of my blood, flesh of my flesh, remember when you and the girls were one in your body? no one can take that away, not that whore, not the delusional H.
You are very depressed and it looks hopeless, you are numb right now, but know that there is ALWAYS a choice
Dont' have a ride? grab the girls and walk to the neighbor and ask for one, I sure as heck did when I locked myself out of my house or asked a stranger for coins when stranded somewhere, it can be done. Go to another OBG, just show up there and wait 'til they see you.
I grew up without a mother, my mother handed me and my 3 siblings over to my father without a fight, she just drunk herself stupid and made our life miserable 'til it was time for us to join my father, she suspected he was having an affair and went crazy with grief, NEVER confronted him, just listened to some gossip and she took it like gospel. I grew up with a father who worked most of the day, I was always alone, no one cared if I had done my homework or -when the time came- if I needed a bra. And you think that airhead would be a good mother to your girls?
YOU are the best for them, you are their sun, they won't love anyone else like they love you. Fight for the 3 of you. Call your parents, ask them to come get you or bumb a ride there, dont' stay alone ok? I'm praying for you Emily))))))))
Be not afraid...I will repay you for the years the locusts have eaten Joel2
30something 2kids survivor of S, MLC, A, D I have peace in my heart, at last.
I agree with Cat. Now is the time to fight. Life kicked you in the gut. Get pissed. Not at your hubby. Not at the OW. Not at yourself. Get pissed and kick life back in the gut. Fight back!
