Emily, I don't get involved in your threads, buy I do follow them. Girl, sitting on your rear isn't going to make anything better, including yourself. You MUST get up and GAL immediately! Stop trying to find bandaids to your stitch. Giving your kids up, obsessing about your H, stuff like that will only put one foot in the grave. AmyC asked you what cities were close to you earlier in the thread. Why do you think she asked you that? She is obviously trying to help you one way or the other. I also heard you mention that no one would help you, well, there are lots of people here that are trying, you must first be willing to accept help Emily. Sitting on your Arse and feeling sorry for youself will not bring your H back to you I can promise you that! Do something, anything to work yourself out of this girl!! God bless!!!