Please understand that I do love my girls. I really do. I just can't find away to hoist myself up this time.
All for Cassie. Hope she's worth it. He's ended so much. He's ended lives and he doesn't even know it yet. I really hope he calls tonight so I can tell him to just come get the girls next weekend. From there he can decided where they go and who will love them. I always will. I am just so sorry that I couldn't be stronger for them. I am so sorry that they were born into a horrid relationship in which their father would walk out and love a whore . . . . I feel so much pain . . . and I am sorry for them. I hope they realize it. I hope they don't hate me later for the choices I have made. I love Kevin VERY much . . . he just doesn't love me back. I don't feel strong enough to go on for them.
