You don't have the luxury of your pride right now. You have to fight for your health and survival. Because of your children.
Where's the fight in you?
And don't you dare say "Kevin took it from me." Kevin is not a god. YOU have control over your future right this minute. You just don't see it. You refuse to see it.
Once you have kids, your life is not just your own. I can't tell you the things I've done... that every mother has done in hard times... to put aside that pride and FIGHT FOR YOUR CHILDREN. I stood in a welfare line for 4 hours with my 4 month old daughter. The lowest point in my life. It's not about you anymore. You're a mom. No one will look out for these kids if you don't. Their father won't even support them, how can you possibly think THAT would change if you were out of the picture?