Did you just refer to your own flesh and blood as "Leftovers?"
Emily, you need to snap out of it. All you do is suck the advice and support out of everyone here, then make excuses about why you can't take any of it.
You have never backed off Kevin. You have never given him space. You have never stopped obsessing over him and his stupid fling.
But none of that even matters right now. You don't care about giving up your own children and you need PROFESSIONAL HELP IMMEDIATELY before you become one of those mothers leading the news at 11.
Do something about the situation you are in. Get off the computer and get some damn help. They are innocents. Your love life is NOTHING compared to them. Do you understand that?
This is my first post. I've been following this story from the beginning, and I finally can't stay quiet!
Emily - You need to take care of yourself and those little ones FIRST, SECOND, and THIRD. AT LEAST!!! At this point Kevin is irrelevant. Cassie is irrelevent. You can't control them, and what they are doing, are not doing, are thinking about doing, have done, might do, might not do, or <insert any tense here> DOES NOT MATTER!!!!
Once you get yourself under control, then, IF you marriage to Kevin is going to survive it is going to take a long, long, long, time. Not days. Not weeks. Probably not months. I think YEARS. Why? Because he is a BOY. He is not ready to be a married, let alone a father once, much less twice. Is is scared to death. I'm not trying to defend him, but you need to understand that. You guys got married so young, and had kids, and you are really still kids (and I don't mean that in an insulting way, that's what you should be). So just forget about him for now, and see if he grows up over the next six months or a year.
On the doctor subject, I think yours is a quack. Postpartum depression or other issues are "normal", but that doesn't mean they should be ignored. You are going through a lot, and you need help. Heck, I think you'd need help even if you weren't worried about Kevin. You (as you know) have huge responsibilities that must feel overwhelming. So you need to take little bites. Which gets back to taking care or you and the girls today. Then tomorrow.
Please listen to the wiser folks here. This isn't a movie, where everything works out in 90 minutes. This is real life, and it isn't always easy.
Amy, I've never seen a 'stranger' care so much. Emily, I hope you can appreciate how hard everyone here is trying to help!
Just for reference, I'm a 45 year old man, still married (obviously with issues, or I wouldn't be spending time here ) with four boys from 8 to 18.
There are no cities close. There is no help, I tried . . . and as always I was told that I was fine. I pushed my pride aside once and reached out for help. I will not do it again. Kevin can just come get his kids and forget I [censored] exsist.
I'm sorry that I "suck" the advice out of everyone here. SO [censored] SORRY.
Call your doctor's office NOW and INSIST on a referral for depression. Be FIRM!!!! You will get it. Tell them you are telling your family members that you have requested evaluation for depression and that you have written down that they are refusing your care - that will light a fire under them as docs are very afraid of malpractice suits.
) with four boys from 8 to 18.