I agree with Amy. You need to talk to professionals. You are falling down further and further. For you to even mention giving up your girls tells me you need to grow up too. Face reality. Giving up your kids will not make things better. I would give my life for my kids. The first thing I told my H when he left was to please not take my kids. Without my kids I would feel like nothing. I can't even stand them being away for a weekend with their dad. It kills me. I can't see how you can say such mean things.
I've tried to get help (I.E. therapy or depression stuff) Because of my medical I have to be refered and my doctor wouldn't help me . . . she thought what I was going through was normal Nothing to be worried about.
The info that you gave was for the Dauphin County area. . . the state capital. Harrisburg area. Why would I call a crisis line. . . . that's for emergency's and I know one of the guys that used to work for them and alls they do is run their mouths about the people that call up here. I wouldn't want my business spread all over anywhere.
I agree that I am probably suffering from depression . . . BUT no one will help me.
Quote: I just don't know how to leave her behind when it feels like she's his future. That's all he feels he has to look forward to. Meanwhile HIS girls and I are left completely behind. All for a stupid married man [censored] whore.
I just don't understand it at all.
This is yet another "But I'm...", "But he...". Stop fighting our help. Stop arguing with us, Emily.
This board is not enough for you. You really need to talk to someone, before you do something you'll regret once you get out of this haze.
Don't argue. Accept it and think about it.
May it be eternal while it lasts.
My sitch
Me: 36
H:34
M: 5 years
Bomb: 03/14/06
Quote: I just don't know how to leave her behind when it feels like she's his future.
You can't think about the future right now. All you can think about is the present. Just take it one day at a time. No one can predict their future.
Quote: Meanwhile HIS girls and I are left completely behind.
They are YOUR girls too. Look at it this way, if things don't work out, you get the better part of the deal. You get the girls. Kevin is not your life, the girls are. You make it sound like if you can't have him then you don't want anything.
Quote: I would give my life for my kids. The first thing I told my H when he left was to please not take my kids. Without my kids I would feel like nothing. I can't even stand them being away for a weekend with their dad. It kills me. I can't see how you can say such mean things.
I used to feel that way too t2sp. I hated the thought of losing the girls. I would have fought him tooth and nail before I'd allow him to even see them again.
Now I get that I have real problems. SO does he . . . but at least he has the means to support them. Like I said . . I would hate to be bitter towards them because of him. Maybe it's just because everything is so wrong. I don't know . . . .
I just think they would be better off anywhere but here.
Quote: I've tried to get help (I.E. therapy or depression stuff) Because of my medical I have to be refered and my doctor wouldn't help me . . . she thought what I was going through was normal Nothing to be worried about.
The info that you gave was for the Dauphin County area. . . the state capital. Harrisburg area. Why would I call a crisis line. . . . that's for emergency's and I know one of the guys that used to work for them and alls they do is run their mouths about the people that call up here. I wouldn't want my business spread all over anywhere.
I agree that I am probably suffering from depression . . . BUT no one will help me.
Go to another doctor! Someone in the US, help us find her the right phone number?
If you're starting to hate your girls, because they remind you of Kevin, yes - this is an emergency.
May it be eternal while it lasts.
My sitch
Me: 36
H:34
M: 5 years
Bomb: 03/14/06
