I agree with Amy. You need to talk to professionals. You are falling down further and further. For you to even mention giving up your girls tells me you need to grow up too. Face reality. Giving up your kids will not make things better. I would give my life for my kids. The first thing I told my H when he left was to please not take my kids. Without my kids I would feel like nothing. I can't even stand them being away for a weekend with their dad. It kills me. I can't see how you can say such mean things.
