I WANT him to take them . . . YES . . . make no mistake about that. Even if I didn't though he could win them from me. If I fought him it would drag up an ugly family history that he's the only one I've ever told about. I see now that it was a mistake. . . . but I thuoght I could confide in him. I mean jeesh we were married and had no secrets then.
I just don't know. I hate looking at them everyday and seeing him. That's the out and out truth. I love my girls and wouldn't want them to go into foster care . . . I would never want that. BUT . . . . I don't know.
He's driven me crazy I think. I've aided him GREATLY in that way.
I don't even know when he'll call again . . . or if he'll be willing to talk to me. I just want to know what is going on.
