There can be no "But he"'s, "But she"'s, "But I'm not"'s... If we are to do this all over again, you have to listen, Emily. People have told you what to do over and over and over again.
There is no magic wand.
Actually... just re-read all your threads... right from the beginning. The fact that people took the time to write it all out to you over and over again means something. They care.
Take the time to re-read them. Really taking it in. I sometimes get the feeling you don't read what people post. You selectively read them and react.
So read. Then post questions.
May it be eternal while it lasts.
My sitch
Me: 36
H:34
M: 5 years
Bomb: 03/14/06