Emily,
Listen to these ladies they know what they are talking about. Don't let her get to you like this. She is nothing but a piece of trash.
I did the same thing you are doning right now. Letting her get to you. Don't let her control your life. You are better then she is. You have God on your side. What does she have? Nothing. I have spent the last 10yrs of my life letting someone take over my life. This is no way to live.
It took Jokerman to help me find peace. He told me what a great injustice I was doing to my marriage and my children. Can you imagine living this way for 10yrs. What a painful way to live. I wish this on no one.
God just knows when to send someone your way when you realy need it. He's sent all of these ladies your way. Use them in every way you can.
It truely pains me to see you go through this.
Just wanted to let you know that you someone else here for you.

(no longer) Lonelyinbed