Emily, you actually possess the skills and enough experience to start your own business.
And just think, you could draw your own advertising picture for the side of the van you will need to have!
You are not hopeless at all! In fact, you could pull together a great business if you are so inclined.
Furthermore, you may qualify for grants (they don't have to be paid back)....especially if you end up single (which we DON'T want, but you would still be able to make something of your life). If you and Kevin can get this crap worked out, you can still do it...and it would help you to feel good about yourself and your contribution to the family. Emily, you can train your kids when they are a little older and even take them with you sometimes.
Holy crap. I wish I'd have had the skills you have when I came out of the AF.