I feel the same about my S as well. He constantly tells me that he is crazy. In his mind he believed that he wanted to have an A just for the sake of having one and then when it started to get intense he became confused. Still wondering what he was confused about. He says he is a "self-fulfilling prophecy"- his parents divorced when he was quite young and he was raised my a mother who is now working on her 3rd divorce. It really boggles the mind-can't waste the time and energy to figure it all out!
