You still are a good person, you always will be........ Don't allow him to validate you or not. That you do for you.
Yes, it hurts...but it does get better. In time you will trust men again. Your H feels that D is the only answer. Mine did too.
Some men, not all, feel there is nothing we can do to make the marriage whole again. Some men don't want to work at anything.
Think about...is it easier to get a clean glass to drink from or take a dirty one and have to wash it and dry it before you drink from it? We live in a disposable century, it's just too easy to start fresh w/o any previous baggage. Some men think that way.........