I think sometimes we just have to be comfortable with accepting whatisis! To know that no matter what happens we will carry on and be OK. That is a true blessing. It allows us to operate from a position of strength rather than from the victim soapbox that we all may so rightly deserve to be on. When you recognize that there is a always a tomorrow, no matter what happens today, that is empowering. I hope if you aren't feeling that right now, Muddle, that in due course you will. I really believe things are moving in a positive direction now. Carry on and MuddleThrough! You're not alone.