I agree with Mama. I also know that it's damn hard not to internalize the hurt and everything she throws at you BUT turning away, as you put it, is not giving up it is trying a new strategy. Giving her space and detaching is a strategy! Her anger may change over time and you don't HAVE to be honest with her about everything. You don't have to accept her version of your R but you have to allow to her to hold it, if she chooses to. You don't see the end (understandably) but you can acknowledge that she does, and that's where she's at. Love for your son can be a building block between the two of you, not something to settle for! I'll be thinking of you , Muddle.
