However I am barely scraping by on what I am making from the state now. If he pays child support then they take all the extra to pay them back for what I was receiving. I simply cannot live like this anymore.
So would I rather continue living on 300 a month that doesn't pay the bills half the time .. . let alone buy diapers. Or would I rather take a leap of faith and shoot for his 7/800 a week?!?!?!?
That's my major hang up . . . I NEED that money.
It's all well and good that the state wants their money back. I understand that. . . . but jeesh a person has to live.
That's why I say it would be easier to settle this out of court.
I can cancel my stuff at any time . . . especially if I added him back to it because I wouldn't be eligible anymore! I can only do this because we never got anything drawn up legally about us being seperated and there is no D in the works. I did this before.
. . . and look where it got me?
WHAT TO DO?????
I don't know what to do . . .
I thought the exact same thing about him opening another account and yatta yatta yatta.
I'm worried about ALL of this.
I cannot get by on this crap I am getting now . . . it just doesn't cover my ass enough. But that leap is HUGE and I'm scared.
I know the whole thing in the bible where it talks about the birds not worrying about where their next meal comes from because He has them "covered" (I don't know exactly what it says) . . . that keeps running through my mind. But I don't know which way it's suppose to make me lean.
