Chloroform The One You Love

[Sandy_wants_to_try]

Emily,
Getting a divorce wont stop it from recycling. It wont stop your depression cycling and it wont stop the pain. Only you can stop the pain.
There really is no difference between just focusing on yourself, seperating for a while, not keeping contact by going dark and divorcing.
You still have to detach. You still have to go down your list of things to do. You still have to deal with him in certain ways. You still have to focus on you and the girls.

It's only a piece of paper.
He left. Divorced or not, that's what happened.
Now you get on with life. Whatever happens a few months down the road, happens.
Your life is not over because of him, right?
You are more than just Kevin's wife.
So be all the other people you are other than Kevin's wife.
Taske that first step and the rest will be easier.

Make the list. All the things you have to do over the next few weeks:

1. Put together resumé
2. Send out resumé
3. Go to that meeting
4. Get drivers license
5. Find clothes for Felina
6. ...
7. ...

you continue. Then you set yourself on those tasks... just take them on, one by one. Focus on the list. Make none of the items about him... only about you and the girls.