Chloroform The One You Love

[ACJ]

I am most definately called to stand.
I already blew it all up though . . .
STUPID STUPID EMILY!
When will I learn?
Well I'm not flat on my face anymore at least . . . I think I've managed to get up and sit down so that I can look around for answers

You backslid so what we all do it.
You are not stupid you are a lovely young woman who cares very much about her H and is hurting like hell.
You learnt today. Now tomorrow utilise what you have learnt as much as you can. If that means you feel you have to express remorse for tonight's phone call do it. It takes far more to be humble than to be arrogant.
No you are not flat on your face anymore. NEver let yourself get in that state again. Remember today as an important lesson so that you never visit that place again.

Emily I was going to bed but I will stay up a bit longer to carry on giving you support if you need it. One of my daughters is called Emily so that is another affinity I share with you!