Quote: Emily 21: I want to stay with the M I love, the only person I've ever been with intimantly, I want my babies to grow up with their wonderful father who loves them soooo very much. If it means that we start all over. Then that's what I want to do. I think that it would be a GREAT place for him and I to start and not feel stressed out about things going right back to where they were.
How the hell has all of this made me so anger and bitter. I really have stopped loving him in the past 9 months. Reading some of that first post . . . took me back like still frames and mini movie clips of that time. I remember how strongly I felt for him BEFORE I knew about Cassie. BEFORE I knew he threw me out for OW . . BEFORE I knew he had really given up.
I am most definately called to stand. I already blew it all up though . . . STUPID STUPID EMILY! When will I learn? Well I'm not flat on my face anymore at least . . . I think I've managed to get up and sit down so that I can look around for answers.
