Well, the simple answer is that she 'lost her voice' when she was younger, and I didn't realize it. Neither did she.
This happened to me as a child too and she sounds like me... I always refer to it as not making a peep and just going along with things even when I was being terribly hurt ( by H and others in my life)..
I have since learned that it ok to be heard and to love and to lift up my H when he needs it,, he needed me for so long and I didnt even know who or where "ME" was...
This makes more sense to me now after reading your post.. and then he cheated on me more than once so my voice turned evn more silent...until I felt invisible...
SHE knows that even if she tells me things she thinks will make me mad that I WILL NOT LEAVE HER.
OMG I felt like this sooooo much,, for a long time. I would have panic attacks in the last few years after his confirmed 1st affair that every time he left especially when angry... I really and truly felt he would never come home and I never understood why,, the FEAR was paralyzing....
thank you soooooooooooooooo much for being so honest and your wonderful post.. I learned alot..this has helped me tremendously to forgive myself even more for feeling like this in the past ,, I used to feel like I was just plain crazy...
God bless...
