My H had a PA and just came clean to me with really not much prying. I just knew he was different. But, I have not told anyone as well. It is a very difficult thing to not talk about. But I feel that my H and I are gonna work this out so why tell anybody else that could have a neg outlook on him. It would just be another thing to try and work out. Definatly go to some sort of therapy for yourself. As weel as MC. If he'll go.
I feel the same as you with love for my H and disgust as well. But another thing that makes me strong is my kids. My kids adore my H and I can withstand this pain from him.I will not let my children be hurt by him, by exposing what he has done and turn towards D. I am a mom who will protect my children to the best of my ability. And I am sure you are too. I will be proud of myself to be able to forgive, and teach my children forgiveness. Consider it that way. It helps me a tad.
I am so sorry for your loss of your dad.
Kim
Me34
H39
married 10 yrs
S12
D8
D6
b/g twins 2
b/g twins 1
H had PA 5/06 ended it 8/06