yes I had my pity party the other day here and it honestly did me good to pound it out here and not at him.
I am reminding myself of all the positives that have evolved, but when it comes to joining H's pity party I really can't go there. Yes, the assurances, the empathy from h would be just what I would wish for too. I need to keep telling myself that I think H started his A due to a depression and he must be the one to find his own joy within himself.
The trusting is most likely my own issue. Time, keep giving myself time. As my own C said, If I was diagnosed with a cancer , would I constantly want to think it returned. Absolutely not , not any of us. My goal is to keep the vulture OW out of my head, but going to do it day by day now.
Going to continue a "happy journal" I have started to write at the end of my day. Started out small, but decided absolute ONLY happy quick notes go in there.
yesterdays: ate my mom's mashed potatos!!--best ever, happy and lucky to still have her with me! my son passed algehra with a B!!!!! picked some flowers from my garden have the day off of work tomorrow my best girlfriend will always be there for me
My mind has a vulture trying to get it, but I got rid of her this way yesterday and am going to make my journal a promise to myself. cat03--I love the idea of the A being slime and not able to get in to you!
Hoping we all get rid of our vultures and eat mashed potatoes--thanks all. )))))))))))))
