sounds like depression still has strong hold of him, he's looking on all the wrong places to find solace to his emptiness (OW). About the HPV test, all he did was hang his head? not good, he might just want confort from you at this stage and that's why he cant give to you fully.
You want your H back, but it seems he is in the tunnel yet. He so needs a T, could actually find a dr and ask him to let you make an appt for him, you say he wont' go to MC, maybe he'll go to a T just for him.
Honey, I'm sorry you are going through this, don't try to "save" your H at your expense, please take care of yourself))))))))))
Be not afraid...I will repay you for the years the locusts have eaten Joel2
30something 2kids survivor of S, MLC, A, D I have peace in my heart, at last.
