My goal is one day at a time, then on to longer and better times. A week, then a month, then the next year while the separation is legalized. This week, though, it's getting a whiff of freedom from an emotional rollercoaster, from emotional abuse, from walking on eggshells.
Aside from that break-out... I have a much larger project that I want to change into a business and a social engineering program. I'm living in a country that doesn't have much in marriage education. In fact, there is a rather primitive approach to relationship difficulties. I've looked around the Net trying to find marriage and relationship seminars, conferences or workshops. I've been highly disappointed. So I want to launch an educational seminar business to coincide with National Marriage Week, during the Valentine's week in the US and the UK. The project is being written up as a business plan that I'll finish by the end of September. I've already got presenters lined-up for the first conference and working on finding one more. Everything surrounding the project has been met with a lot of enthusiasm - probably because no one has heard of it before! So, whether or not I can save my own marriage, it won't matter because I intend to help as many other families in crisis who want help. The plan is also to provide relationship counselling in schools, so that all those kids from single parent families will have the skills or knowledge they can't get from their own families. That would make me happy, feeling useful, being an advocate of self-knowledge, personal development and learning to be a better person, partner and parent. I would rather bring in some expert help to encourage people to get the education they may never have received.
Happy... it will come from the inside out. I'm looking forward to being surrounded by happy!
H:55 M:54 D:16 M:1983 A#2:11/05 I moved out:09/06 A ended:01/08, new A started 05/08 D: tbc - sometimes this fall??
"You did what you knew how to do. When you knew better, you did better" - Maya Angelou