Mama, hang in there. I suspect that when things seem to get better and start taking that turn, is when it gets the hardest for us. We have secretly had this vision of what the reconciliation will be {think romantic scene with water fountain and flower petals floating through the air as you and your H run to each other and clasp in throws of passion, as he professes his undying love for you}.... take THAT Daniel Steele!
OK, but what I was trying to say is that this is coming around, in it's OWN way...not YOUR way. Stay patient.....this is when you need that reserve of strength and patience most.
There WILL be a day that is YOUR day to ask questions, get answers, and feel angry. Until then, let the natural path take it's course.